When I was 16, I remembered my sister waking me up early in the morning to greet me 'happy birthday'. Now at 34, my sister, who is already in the United States, sent me an advanced birthday message that hit me and almost made me cry. Why? Because her message made me realize all my shortcomings: how selfish I was and how I did not care about our family before. Her message did not directly say those things. Her message was so heartfelt that it made me think about the past. With that, I began to reflect what I have become. I was sad, instead of being happy. But it was Ok because all these years I have been in denial. I used to be so idealistic, just being happy with what was given to me. I was happy when I got what I want. I didn't care about the real situation around me. Sometimes it is painful to think of the past and all that we can do is just reflect and learn from it.
I love my life now, happier and more content, not because of the material things, but because I have my husband and kids to fill in the emptiness. I used to think that having a lot of friends would make me happy. Now, I have come to realize that what I needed are true friends. I don't have a lot, as a matter of fact, I have very few. But it is better. Before, I have lots of free time and nothing to do. Now, I can't even find time for myself. Taking care of my children has become my 24-hour 'job' and I'm loving it! So I guess my life has become better.
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